4 days till orlando
17 till i leave jupiter/go to gainesville for a day
18 till tally for a day
19 till i move back to auburn
28 till i move into my apartment

holy god i am so excited
too bad this is the slowest and most boring week EVER.

it's getting so close! i have 31 days left in this dumb town
2 being spent in miramar, and 2 being spent in orlando
i've stared planning how i want my room to look
it's really exciting, especially knowing that my roommate is just as excited
and also in the thought process of planning hers too.

i won't get into it, but my life's been simultaneously boring and crazy
the GM at my job got demoted and doesn't work with us anymore.
it's like the rain cloud is gone. everyone's a lot happier and my job doesn't suck AS MUCH
still want out though.


alright, this is boring.

what the fuck is the point of trying to have friends in this gay ass town?
i don't even know why i bother.
i've been sold out on 5 times in the past 3 days
rendering me with nothing to do while throughout the day/week i'm excited for my plans
and it's EVERYONE not even just a couple people.
so fuck it. i'm just gonna keep to myself this summer and let things happen as they will
i'm not fucking planning
i'm not getting my fucking hopes up
and i'm not fucking caring.
GOD i hate people so much
THIS is a huge contributor to why i can't wait to get the fuck back to auburn.

it's a shame i don't have any friends to tell this to
that'll actually listen and not be a fucking retard about it.
god damn it we live in retarded times.
no wonder i enjoy spending so much time alone.

5 days till summer/financial accounting is OVER.
19 days till orlando
25 days till the entourage season 6 premiere
47 days till gainesville/getting the fuck outta jupiter indefinitely
48 days till tallahassee
49 days till auburn
57 days till moving into the apartment

i have to have things to look forward to or i'll legitimately go insane
true blood is so good
weeds is disappointing
work sucks a fat one
and i'm sooo ready for these 47 days to go by.

i'm finna start watching arrested development
cause we have no life.
we being me and my multiple personalities?

as if i couldn't get more excited to move
i then remembered who i was living with.
holy insanity to the 5th dimension.
=) =) =)

oh & weeds is amazing
almost done with season 4
started roughly 3 days ago
season 5 starts june 8th thank god
season two of true blood starts june 14th!

i have no life, a broken a/c
and work at 430

semester - OVERWITH. 2 b's 2 c's. exact same as fall
i'm over it. i'm just glad that it's done.
one of the b's is in stats though. and i am damn proud of that.

i haven't worked a double in over a month and of all days, i work a damn double on mother's day. i have family coming up, my mom's cooking - the whole shebang. and i'll be at work. fuckkkk my life. whatever, it's money.

i paid my first month's rent. exciiiiiiting. i can't wait to finally be out of florida, have my own life, and be back with my friends again, and surrounded by people who have similar goals and mentality as i do. being away from it is such a serious downer. getting away from here is legitimiately one of the only things keeping me going.

since i dropped my nutrition class in the spring, i need one more class to become a junior by hours. i'm taking financial accounting, which surprisingly is pretty damn interesting. i'm kinda excited for this class and the teacher is actually pretty cool. plus it's at the other cc, so i never have to run into anyone i know again. i love it. i've become such a nerd i swear.

i don't know if it's my anticipation to move and realizing this whole shamblefest of my current life is coming to a close or what but i've learned to get over things so quickly and not let them affect my mood/demeanor. i certainly can't complain.

i'm so glad to finally have a life and friends again. and i'm getting my car next week i think. whatev. to quote my boy brad james n. - summertiiime & the livin's easy.

except for every monday and wednesday when i'm in class
and every day aside from that cause i work. thanks doof.

gainesville tomorrow for the weekend!
rowdy.

i registered for my fall 09 classes on wednesday. got all my first choices, i'm really excited about that.
then yesterday i got my financial aid award information which excited me all that much more. i cannot wait for all of this to become my every day again.
i'm visiting gainesville again the weekend after easter, this time under much better conditions to where i'm actually allowed to have a good time. i'm really excited.
among all the jobs i've ever had, this is bottom 5 by far. i can't wait to quit.

i'm taking one class in the summer, principles of marketing. i'm taking it at the lake worth campus every monday through thursday at 1230 for six weeks. once that's over, literally all i have to look forward to is auburn.

i can't wait.
i seriously cannot wait.

fucking mcschemerstein.
auburn in 5 months.
dassit.

life's been pretty freakin swell.
more later. studying now.

i know right?
i love adderall

he's dtf.

Right now, I can legitimately say life is good. I got a job on Thursday and everyone that works there is awesome. I love it there already. School's goign alright so far, although it's still way in the beginning of the semester. I started working out today too. My friend pays 12 bucks extra for tanning and a free guest, so I go with her as a companion and motivation and for some reason she doesn't want me to pay her the difference, which I gladly would cause I'm not a mooch by any means. I think we're gonna keep it up cause there's literally no reason not to. I can't wait to start seeing results. I don't know why I'm using correct capitalization and grammar haha.

For the first time in a while, although I'm still looking forward to going back to Auburn more than anything, that's not my main focus. I'm living every day at a time and enjoying it rather than counting down the days. It'll be even better when I get my car and new computer charger.


& now it's nap time.

bye bye to one of the most bittersweet years of my life. happy new year! got big plans for 09 baby!

i'll admit it, twilight (the book) was really fucking good. i bought it yesterday and finished it earlier today. i'm gonna borrow the rest from my cousins/aunt. edward cullen is way overhyped though. i still like true blood better. i'm glad i finally finished a book, i mean it was a great book, but it'd been so long since i'd finished a book i started. i'm gonna try finishing the one i've been in the middle of since september.

my grades are probably the only thing that's pissed me off since i've been down. i got c's in english and humanities cause of those death papers at the end of the semester, a b in cgs cause my teacher was a fucking cunt and hated me, and i'm damn proud of myself for the b i got in government. i wasn't expecting that one at all. whatever. next semester's even more irrelevant than this one, but i guess that's for the better?

i'm so happy i'm finally on break and out of orlando. i can't wait until summer. i hope this semester flies by faster than fall did. i'm so over 08 in general, so i'm elated for new year's. 09 looks like a promising year thus far. going to auburn in february to talk to my advisor about my fall schedule and stuff, take care of roommate business, and practice hella debauchery. then again in march for early spring break celebration and my and my friend's birthday celebrations. it should be a hella good time both times. i miss the place so damn much. i can't wait to live there again.

my (next) fall roommate and i seriously couldn't be a better match. she was my next door neighbor in freshman year and we hung out seriously every day. she's essentially the polar opposite of me but the exact same at the same time. it's hard to explain, but she's one of my best friends. we shared a lot firsts together and experienced so much as friends, so i'm really excited what it's gonna be like living together. we have to find another roommate though cause jenee backed down, i was expecting it though, so no surprise there. it's all gonna work out though, and summer/fall, whenever i move back up, is gonna be amazinggggg.

i wish i had friends to tell this to cause i feel i'm just rambling at this point. whatever, nobody really reads this anyways.

another all nighter i guess. THANKS vyvanse.
i can't wait for my finals to be over
really though, i can't wait for 08 in general to be over
i'm excited to move back with my family and just not be in orlando anymore.


i had my humanities exam at 10A yesterday and i think i did pretty solid especially since i didn't study. it was comprehensive and all the questions came from previous tests, so i may have actually done pretty well.
tomorrow, or i guess today considering it's 4 hours away i have my us government final.
this is my hardest class of the semester so i've been studying all day for it
i think i've pretty much got it down, but i probably won't stop studying until i'm taking the test but once it's over i'll have such a huge weight lifted from my shoulders.
tomorrow (wednesday) is my english final which shouldn't be too awful
and finally thursday is my cgs final which literally will be the easiest thing of my life.

i don't know how i feel about my schedule next semester
i have class monday through thursday from 930A to 1215P
i'm taking 4 classes on campus (elements of nutrition, environmental conservation, statistics, and health concepts and strategies) and 1 online (macroeconomics). the classes i'm taking, stats and econ aside, seem like a huge joke, but we'll see i guess.

instead of spending all last weekend studying for my exams, i went to buzz bake sale
IT WAS AWESOME. i had such a blast
i saw reel big fish, atreyu, and avenged sevenfold. sooo good.
heard a bunch of other bands, while i was there, but didn't take the effort to see any of them.
i saw an ass ton of my friends i hadn't seen in forever too, which was nice.

anywho, back to studying i guess. 2 days till outtie 5000!

oh my effing word i hate this semester.
i'm so glad it's over in 11 days.
i'm currently procrastinating a 10 page paper due tomorrow.
10 pages! is that even legal?
fuckkk.

it's good to be replaced. seriously though.

tonight is a lot more intense than i'd anticipated.

i've been watching that for about 10 minutes straight. i haven't seen that skit in years. i used to watch it with my mom.

can't wait to moveeee.

summer 07 - auburn university auburn, al
fall 07 - auburn university, auburn al
summer 08 - palm beach community college palm beach gardens, fl
fall 08 - valencia community college orlando, fl
spring 09 - palm beach community college palm beach gardens, fl
fall 09 - auburn university auburn, al



=)

studying SUCKS. i keep forcing myself to keep going although i clearly don't want to, which i guess is giving me discipline? i have 3 tests this week, one on monday, one on tuesday, and one on wednesday. the tuesday one is gonna be a doozy being that it's in my hardest class this semester. i have to read the chapter 3 more times and study the flash cards i made for it. i can't wait for december 11th. that's the day of my last final and when i never have to deal with fucking orlando ever again. woooo.

i'll stop procrastinating now.

If you have it, you don't need it.
If you need, it you don't have it.
If you have it, you need more of it.
If you have more of it, you don't need less of it.
You need it to get it, and you certainly need it to get more of it.
But if you already don't have any of it to begin with, you can't get any of it to get started, which means you really have no idea how to get it in the first place, do you?
You can share it, sure, you can even stock pile it if you like, but you can't fake it.
Wanting it, needing it, wishing for it... the point is, if you've never had any of it, ever, people just seem to know.

EXPERIENCE IS EVERYTHING



Best commercial I've ever seen hands down.


i went through my old phone's emails and found this in my notes.
from back in like 06 haha. still the best commercial.

never in my life have i hated a place more than i hate orlando, fl holy crap. i'm so ready to get out of here and get back to the burn.

if everything works out, i'm only gonna be up here for the rest of this semester then i'm moving back to jupiter with my dad for spring and taking classes at pbcc till fall. it's all riding on my dad's decision on whether i can move back in with him and how my financial aid is gonna go through. i just really need to save money, especially if i'm going back to auburn.

09 seems pretty solid, i just hope auburn takes me back. and getting that internship in NY this summer would be choice. as long as i don't have to take any summer school like i have for the past 2 years, i'm set.

i guess on a side note? power walked for about an hour and a half last night and i swear it kicked my ass. my knees are in insane pain and my buns and thighs, and waist actually, are very sore. sweet?

hi life, me again. can you fast forward me to may? thaanks.

anywho, back to the real world. i realize that there's some major things i need to change in my life if i'm ever gonna succeed.

i need to gain discipline: i think by budgeting my days with the things that i need to do and actually sticking to it that'll help with the fact. i'm no doctor though.

i need to start working out again: i tried running tonight and that was an obvious failure, so i power walked, or speed walked to sound a little less fruity, for the better of an hour and a half and i feel amazing now. i've decided i'm doing that on the daily.

i need to stop being a psycho: i won't go into that. and really i don't think i'm a psycho, but really guys, grow a pair. then we'll talk.

i need a job: self explanatory

i need to stick to things that i start: studying, working out, sandwiches

i need to eat healthier: junk food is killing me. literally.

i'm over that. orlando sucks. i miss auburn so much. everything i'm doing in my life as of now is trying to better myself so i can try and get back. i already printed and filled out the readmission form i just have to fax it. and i have to write an appeal or some shit for financial aid. now that my parents are split up and i'm better prepared for it, auburn really could work out for me financially. and i'll have a car this time around so i can get a job. i really hope they let me back in.

i've been in orlando since july and although i've had some fun here and there it's dumb. i describe it to everyone as an orgy of every person i've ever hated in my life. it's pretty bad. i think i'm getting evicted too, so i've started looking for apartments that are significantly cheaper than the one i'm in now and significantly closer to campus, and this time with a roommate so i hope that works out. that would make my october/november through may just a little better

and i have to call arty soon to see if he can hook me up with a summer internship up in new york at abc studios. i don't know what i'd do, but it'd be amazing to spend the summer before junior year in new york. i spoke about it with my mom and she's absolutely thrilled about the idea so we'll see how that pans out.

i love seth rogen. and on that note, i guess i'll finish this. i really should write in it more primarily cause i know barely anybody will read this.

i'm gonna try and change for the better.
keyword in that sentence being try.
we'll see where i get with that.
hopefully i can stick to it.
i'll start by finishing this post so i can stop procrastinating this damn homework/studying.
but i'm really excited for auburn in 5 days.

Philadelphia, Penisvagina.

It's been quite a while since I've written in this. It's a new year (happy late one) and a bunch of new shit is happening. For one, I won't be going to Auburn anymore and on the 15th I'm moving back home with my family. Shit up here just isn't working out as my family and I had planned, so I'm gonna move back and get a job and save up a bunch of money then in the summer I'm gonna take hella classes and move to Orlando in the fall. I'm hoping to go to UCF provided they accept me again (I'm pathetic), but it's guaranteed that I'm moving to Orlando cause Valencia already sent me an acceptance. Valencia is for sure my back up though. Super Bowl XLII this Sunday and uhh fuck the Pats, I'm totally rooting for the Giants. I got a job last month, it sucks. I hate it, I barely make money, and I'm so happy that I'm putting in my 2 weeks. And I'm also really excited to see Strange Wilderness tomorrow.

That's about it for recent events of significance somewhat regarding school.

I had a heart to heart with Kelsey (my summer/current roommate) tonight cause it'd been a while since we both took time out of our lives to sit down and actually have a conversation with one another and I came to an epiphany and came up with a new year's resolution and something I want to give up for lent. Making progress, even though it's 2 months late. Anyways, my epiphany is that there's only one thing I want in life currently: consistency, so my goal is to become more consistent with the things I do in every aspect in my life. I think if I start continuing and finishing the things I start, my goals will be attained thoroughly and easier and I'll generally be happier cause I'll always have some sort of a sense of accomplishment. So, that's my NY's resolution, to gain a sense of consistency in life. As for lent, I'm giving up any beverage except that isn't tea or water. I don't drink alcohol on a daily basis in the least, so I'm not giving that up since I only consume it on the weekend anyways. I think I could do it. I used to put myself up to these little challenges before just to prove that I can do things. I was a vegetarian for 2 years, so that proved that I could go without eating meat, I drank nothing but water for about a month and that was wonderful, I don't know why I went back to drinking soda and other things actually cause it was probably one of the healthiest months in my life. That's another thing I want, to be healthy again. Once I move back to Jupiter I'm gonna start working out again (and being CONSISTENT about it) and start eating healthier along with the drinking of only healthy drinks. I think I can do it if I put enough willpower into it. I'm gonna start keeping a planner and get a desk calendar so I can get used to writing things down and checking them off as I go along. Damn, I'm kinda just rambling now.

It's 4:10 central time and I can't sleep. This isn't unusual.

I plan on getting 2 jobs upon arrival back home. I wanna try and work at a dealership as reception or something like that, just to try something new, then I want to wait tables. I think since all I'll be doing until about June is working and nothing but I'll start making bank, getting my financial life back on track, and then I can start saving up for a car.

My birthday is in 39 days and I am not excited about it at all. I have nothing to really look forward to for another 2 years. 19 is the legal age in Alabama but I doubt that I'll be spending my birthday here unless I get a car or get a plane ticket over to Atlanta or something, but either way, 19 most likely won't be any different than 18.

I've got a lot more on my mind than I had thought. I'll stop though. Not as if anyone reads this anyways. Until next time. Which will probably be tomorrow in a stupor of absolute boredom before work. Ugh, my life.

I fall asleep every night watching TV, otherwise I can't get to sleep. Anyways, I usually fall asleep watching Adult Swim. Which leads me to exactly WHY I hate SD.

Every freaking morning at 8 o'clock, I hear Scooby Doo's dumb ass trying to talk or a young version of Fred accusing Red Harry of committing whatever crime they're trying to solve.

What the hell is the point of that show anyways? And more importantly, why is it still in syndication 40 years after it was made? Ugh. Fuck you Scooby Doo.

I believe in Auburn and LOVE IT

WAR DAMN EAGLE.

Jupiter, FL is boring as SHIT. I can't wait to go back to Auburn.

I don't know what tonight will bring, but whatever it is, I'm so ready. Friday-mania hell yea. The only disadvantage is I'm home alone for the weekend. I really do hope my roommate feels better and I'm really obsessed with this song.

Scantily clad.

Friday the 13th definitely started off on the right foot. I found out I had a test today literally 15 minutes before bombing it and I think I'm on the right track to becoming an alcoholic.

Woooo.

But here's something worth watching.

College is miserable. I'm depressed to the point of nausea. I hate it here and I want to go back to Florida ASAP.

I just saw a commercial for Shia LeBouf's new movie Disturbia, and it looks soo good, I can't wait to see it.

In other news, my computer won't let me on Myspace, and Facebook isn't letting me on. I don't know what's going on. It's saddening how my life revolves around the internet. Tim Mahoney and the 2 page biography I have to write on him sucks, as well as trigonometry. I'm so glad I don't have to take anymore exams. Graduation is right around the corner and I could not be any more excited.

College, here I come!

So, I was going through my old LiveJournals today, and I realized: I was really fucking gay as a 15/16 year old. I can only imagine how I had friends. I was such a fucking retard, with the most retarded and adolescent problems. I look back at all that and laugh.


Oh, good times.

I opened my own free checking account (as opposed to having an add-on from my uncle's account) sometime last week and I've been patiently awaiting for the card to arrive, and today, it finally came.

Anyways, I hadn't paid my phone bill for two months (due to lack of money, then lack of a card) and my bill came out to about $190. So I had about $120 from accident money and paycheck/tips from work and another $94 from yesterday's tips. I prepared a budget (cause I'm investing in something today that will round out to about $80-$90) and figured out everything that needed to be figured, went to the bank, deposited the money, and paid my bill.

For some reason, I get an intense feeling of responsibility from doing that. I feel good. I'm happy right now, truly happy. Now I'm off to patiently wait my mother's arrival so I can go invest in my investment. =).

I never know how to end these things without being a retard. Bye.

So, I haven't used LiveJournal in a while, so I figured I'd give it a shot again. Not too much has been going on in my life, okay that's a lie. Alot of stuff has been happening, but mostly I'm just patiently awaiting the summer to come so I can finally get the hell out of here. By the way, for those of you who don't know, I'm going to Auburn University next year. I don't know who's going to be reading this though, cause I only know of 2 people who still actively use LiveJournal, so whatever. Anyways, yea, Auburn. In Alabama. I don't know a single person that's going there next year on a personal level (people randomly message and add me on facebook from the groups and stuff), so that adds a little more excitement to me. I won't go into that though, I'll be here for days. Not meaning to state the obvious, but high school sucks. Everything about it. I can't even go into detail over it. I'm just so done with it. 3rd 9 weeks and I haven't a single A. Go me! Whatever. I got my tongue pierced on my birthday (2 weeks ago tomorrow) which was good times. Then I went to Miami with two of my friends and partied at UM. Anyways, this is getting pointless now. This is kinda cool, I don't remember exactly why I stopped using this. Probably cause of MySpace. But I'm going to start using this more often. Later.

Does anyone still use LiveJournal?

haven't used this shit in a whiiiiile.